Well, hello there. Nice to see you again.
I’m sitting on my couch right now, hearing the fog horn calling in the distance, and all I can see out my window is a small beacon of light peeking out from behind the fog. It takes me back to my oh-so-awful high school poetry, but that beacon of light seems symbolic for my life right now.
Last month, my dad passed away. I thought that I had been through some rough patches in my life, but my dad’s death made anything difficult in the past seem so small and insignificant. It changed my life in so many ways and altered so much of what I believed was constant about my life. I know many daughters are close to their fathers, but my dad understood me in a way that nobody else ever has. Ever since, I’ve felt directionless.
The pain of his passing also put the rest of my life into pretty stark contrast. In so many other way, this was setting up to be the best year of my life. I started a new job that’s not only dynamic and challenging but also nurturing and a childhood dream fulfilled. I feel so lucky to have the amazing friends that we’ve gotten to know in SF, and I’m becoming closer with some members of my extended family. My dad’s death doesn’t make the rest of the joy disappear, but it feels different when coexisting with such sadness.
Even though it’s been hard to imagine doing much of anything other than working and sleeping, I want to make space for the happiness and fun that used to be in my life. I started this blog in 2012 as a side project, as nothing more than a distraction from my “real” job. But it turned into so much more, and not just because it’s what shaped me changing careers. This blog is a place for me to focus on the beautiful, the silly, the chic, the not-chic-but-I’m-still-wearing-it, and the simply fun. It makes me happy, and I’m not ready to abandon it.
So, here I am. Thanks for reading along, and thanks for being there.
I wasn’t sure how I would do at my friend’s wedding, which fell two weeks after Dad. But being surrounded by such bright, colorful joy was exactly what I needed.
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